Thursday, November 3, 2011

My Life Lately

I’ve mentioned a few times in recent posts that I’ve had a lot on my mind and emotions. After working at my church for seven and a half years, and directing the children’s program for five and a half of that, I have stepped down to be a full time stay at home mom. It was a really hard decision to come to. It’s odd to want to walk away from something you love and know you’re good at. But, ultimately, where I want to be is at home taking care of my son and husband. Part of what made this process so hard was telling the church’s leadership my choice, and then giving them a month to come up with a plan for the program’s future. And with that month came a short season of quietness—I didn’t want people to know about the upcoming change without having a plan to present at the same time. For a talker and verbal processer like me, that month was hard. My emotions were constantly spinning. I cried a lot. And I withdrew. I found it hard to have real conversations with friends because I couldn’t tell them the magnitude of a life change I was heading into. I couldn’t invite people to grieve with me as I said farewell to what has been one of the highlights of my life. I watched a lot of TV. Crocheted baby hats. And played with my son. I think he’s thrilled by the increased attention from me.

But then, a plan was created. An ending date was set (November 30). And the church was told. (If you’re nosy like me and would like to read the letter I wrote, I posted it here.) And suddenly the sun is shining again. I’m joyfully looking forward to the day when I wake up and realize taking care of my son is my full time job. I’m being affirmed like crazy by the families I love to take care of. And I’m excited to have more time and energy to create and share with you.

And know what’s really exciting me? Developing my mom style. For the past 5+ years, so many of my clothing choices have centered around being professionally casual and presenting myself in a way that would instill confidence in a parent entrusting their child to me. But now, now I want to be a cute, stylish mom. So I’ve been pinning. It helps that my friend, Natalie, pins adorable outfits all the time.

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I’m thinking I’d love to incorporate button ups a lot. Casual yet put together, right?

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I think I’ll say goodbye to heels (for the most part) and enjoy boots and flats. And scarves and belts will show up all.the.time.

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I want to look put together but ready to chase my little toddler.

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I’m going to need to be very careful to schedule my time and not slip into life-is-now-a-never-ending-vacation mode. While on maternity leave, Nolan came home for lunch each day. So I made sure I was dressed by noon. Having inspiration like these will help keep that kind of routine for me.

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I’m feeling soooo inspired to sew some clothes, starting with the gray jacket on my 12 by 2012 list.

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And I’d like to refashion an oversized khaki jacket hanging in my closet.

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And the reality is: me staying home means less money in the budget. Which means more creativity with my wardrobe. It’ll mean using the same pieces I used for business casual to look cute mom.

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I’m excited for the challenge.

Thanks for letting me share what’s going on with me. And for being patient during this past month while the creativity lacked.

10 comments:

  1. That was a brave and wonderful thing you did. I'm looking forward to seeing what you create!

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  2. Get ready for the biggest blessing of your life. A challenge and a gift, all in one.

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  3. I love staying home with my boys but we do give up a lot to do so. You'll love it I'm sure. Life is so often full of hard decisions. Good luck and those are some way cute mom outfits!

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  4. Congratulations on making a huge decision! And welcome to life as a stay at home mom--so hard, so fun and so fulfilling.

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  5. That sounds like a great plan! If you are interested I did a tutorial for the turquoise necklace in the gray and turquoise outfit.

    http://yellowblackbird.blogspot.com/2011/09/ribbon-and-drop-pearl-necklace-knock.html

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  6. First of all, if that's you lacking in creativity then I am very excited to see what you can do when you are feeling super creative! Uh, remember the gnome? :) As a fellow SAHM, I have a bit of advice. Don't fall into the no make up, jammmies all day trap. I haven't allowed myself to, either, but there are days where I really don't want to try. It can be really hard being at home with monkeys all day long and it is easy to get in a funk of feeling sorry for yourself and a feeling of uselessness. You are doing the most important job of all, raising your legacy, God's legacy. Do it all for God and the rest will fall into place. :)

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  7. I am super excited for you and this new chapter that you are opening. I know that you will most definitely be missed in that role at church, but Lucy is going to do a fabulous job. I am so happy that you are following God's leading in this, especially with it meaning that you are stepping away from something that you love. You have done an amazing job, but you are going to be just as amazing as a SAHM. :)

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  8. I don't think you will have a hard time pulling off the cute mom look as you ALREADY ARE ONE!!! :) P.S. I got 3 necklaces up in an online store on my site! I thought you would be excited for me! lol! small start, but it's a start! Not despising the day of small things! :)

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  9. I"m so thankful everything worked out and went smoothly! I will continue to be praying for you as you step away from your role at the church but as you embrace your stay at home Mom role now! What a blessing that you can stay at home! Have fun creating! :) Although I'm a lil sad because I probably won't get to see you as much since you won't be in Salem as much! :) We wil lhave to make some dates!

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  10. Congratulations to you and your family! Enjoy your new role!

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