I’ve mentioned a few times in recent posts that I’ve had a lot on my mind and emotions. After working at my church for seven and a half years, and directing the children’s program for five and a half of that, I have stepped down to be a full time stay at home mom. It was a really hard decision to come to. It’s odd to want to walk away from something you love and know you’re good at. But, ultimately, where I want to be is at home taking care of my son and husband. Part of what made this process so hard was telling the church’s leadership my choice, and then giving them a month to come up with a plan for the program’s future. And with that month came a short season of quietness—I didn’t want people to know about the upcoming change without having a plan to present at the same time. For a talker and verbal processer like me, that month was hard. My emotions were constantly spinning. I cried a lot. And I withdrew. I found it hard to have real conversations with friends because I couldn’t tell them the magnitude of a life change I was heading into. I couldn’t invite people to grieve with me as I said farewell to what has been one of the highlights of my life. I watched a lot of TV. Crocheted baby hats. And played with my son. I think he’s thrilled by the increased attention from me.
But then, a plan was created. An ending date was set (November 30). And the church was told. (If you’re nosy like me and would like to read the letter I wrote, I posted it here.) And suddenly the sun is shining again. I’m joyfully looking forward to the day when I wake up and realize taking care of my son is my full time job. I’m being affirmed like crazy by the families I love to take care of. And I’m excited to have more time and energy to create and share with you.
And know what’s really exciting me? Developing my mom style. For the past 5+ years, so many of my clothing choices have centered around being professionally casual and presenting myself in a way that would instill confidence in a parent entrusting their child to me. But now, now I want to be a cute, stylish mom. So I’ve been pinning. It helps that my friend, Natalie, pins adorable outfits all the time.
I’m thinking I’d love to incorporate button ups a lot. Casual yet put together, right?
I think I’ll say goodbye to heels (for the most part) and enjoy boots and flats. And scarves and belts will show up all.the.time.
I want to look put together but ready to chase my little toddler.
I’m going to need to be very careful to schedule my time and not slip into life-is-now-a-never-ending-vacation mode. While on maternity leave, Nolan came home for lunch each day. So I made sure I was dressed by noon. Having inspiration like these will help keep that kind of routine for me.
I’m feeling soooo inspired to sew some clothes, starting with the gray jacket on my 12 by 2012 list.
And I’d like to refashion an oversized khaki jacket hanging in my closet.
And the reality is: me staying home means less money in the budget. Which means more creativity with my wardrobe. It’ll mean using the same pieces I used for business casual to look cute mom.
I’m excited for the challenge.
Thanks for letting me share what’s going on with me. And for being patient during this past month while the creativity lacked.