Monday, May 26, 2014

Monday: a refocus

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Ever feel like you’re in a cycle of spinning and spinning but have no idea how to stop it? That’s where I was last week. My mind was overwhelmed by how many commitments were on my plate. They were all good things—intentionally chosen people, groups and things that I love being a part of and don’t want to cut or put on hold. My house was a disaster (although, let’s face it, that would be true whether or not my schedule was overwhelmed). And my husband, who is in a stressful season at work, was coming home and looking defeated because it didn’t look or feel like he sat at the top of my priority list. But, despite all that, I can’t seem to stop my mind from dreaming. And as I’m going through the book Not a Fan with my church, I’m feeling convicted to actually invest what God has given me and called me to (see the Parable of the Talents in Matthew 25:14-30).

There is a holy restlessness in me (thank you Restless by Jennie Allen) to want more. I love my role as a stay at home mom, being best friends with my husband, and growing some awesome friendships. But I also want success in my shop, and have dreams of a ministry to women through speaking and writing. I’m a pretty here and now kind of girl and it takes a pretty stern voice of God to get me to wait for a dream to come true. So I’ve been doing a little mental reorganizing in my life. Looking at how I can make my family feel like they really do sit in the number one spot on my priority list while maintaining what’s already on that list and pursuing new dreams.

For a while now, I’ve wanted to share more of my heart on this blog, but haven’t been sure I could. Sure, I’ve had some heart to heart and coffee talk style posts, but I worried that I couldn’t change the focus. After all, the readership here was built off of sewing and crafting tutorials (although, let’s face it, there have been so few of those lately, “readership” is a pretty generous term). So a while back I started a devotional blog called Satisfied with Adquate to exercise my love of writing and share the thoughts that God is leading me to. But I never wrote on it much despite well thought through posts. The reality of maintaining and investing in two blogs caused me to completely neglect both and feel mentally burdened by it.

I’ve been paying attention to what blogs I actually read these days and I rarely read strictly craft blogs anymore. Who I am is not the craft blog obsessed person that I once was. My favorite blogs make that list because of who writes them, not what they create. I read because I like the writer’s voice. With that fact in mind, and after lots of attempts at mental resorting but not really coming up with a plan, I read Little Miss Momma’s post, The Advice that Built This Blog. I had a bit of an epiphany. I need to keep this personal.

Who I am now is not what this blog once was. But who I am now still can blog. And blog with less expectations while having better accountability. Made it on Monday is becoming The Monday Blog (but will keep my same web address for who knows how long because I don’t want to invest the time into figuring out how to change that). I’ll post on Mondays. I’ll write about what’s happening in my shop, the Shop Talk series, and simple tutorials for something I make for myself or my home. And I’ll add in devotional thoughts about faith, and snippets of my family life. It’ll all be in there. It’ll be personal and it’ll be real. So if you’re here for my voice—yay! let’s stay friends. I’ll look forward to our standing Monday dates.

Thanks for stopping by. And if you’re reading this in a reader, hop on over to the actual site because it’s had a bit of a makeover.